Less than 150 days, till I graduate, till I become an adult, if that is my choice and enter the real world, or I can continue to educate myself and slowly post-pone this new reality. Each day we are faced with many different choices, chocolate or white milk at lunch, sleep a little later or come in early, study now or just take the chance. We begin to become accustom to this way of life and no longer question our actions day to day, but just assume that each day we will have and it will be as productive as the last and nothing will ever change that.
I've learned though in life you have no guarantees, at all. You aren't promised anything, and even those whom do make promises often let us down by not following through with these 'promises.' We still continue to maintain this way, while things around us change, and our choices effect every single thing that we do, and who we become. In an instant our entire lives may flash before us, because we've made a bad choice.
This choice could be to be mean to our friends, cheat on a test, or even things that can complete destroy your life taking away everything you have worked for and hold dear to you. This is something that I can personally say has happened to me.
When people ask me about it, I can only tell the truth, and although every time it stings when I think of how much I lost, I know it is my fault and I must pay for MY choice. No one made me do what I did, and no one can fix it or really relate to it. That is because it was my life that I messed up. I didn't realize that with one little choice everything I love could be lost.
This is a major reason that in less than 150 days I will have to start over, because everything that I have known for 13 years will be gone, and again my life will be turned upside down. It won't be an ending it will be a new beginning, and this time I won't take the things, or people that I love for granted.
The hardest thing to watch, is the moment when you think, there goes my life.
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