we'll i've been afraid of changing.

In life we have those moments that change us. They may not always be for the best but they do indeed, change us. We continue with each day living our lives to be who we think we are and what we want to be. As we do this we can sometimes even see those glimmers of our past, and the lives we once had. Whether it's through pictures, songs, seeing a certain person, or maybe just a simple word that reminds you of that one moment, when you thought you had everything you ever wanted.We look past these little moments that allow us to never forget the good things, and usually only see the things that remind us of the bad changes.


Although, seeing the good things makes us want to continue to be happy and try to recreate these moments where we scored the winning point, aced the test, or met the person we fell in love with, the bad things are also there for a reason. If we always spent our time only seeing the good we could never learn from that bad right? However, what happens when we reach that point where none of it is good nor bad? Do we simply move along with our lives as though these times never happened or realize that maybe we were never meant to have that life? We can see that both good and bad things begin and end, then begin again only to end and repeat.


More to the point however, should we and do we spend too much time living in the past, in that life that we wish we still had and in the mistakes that we made. We are reminded every day to make choices. We chose what we want to do, and then begin to see how our changes have effected us when we are only able to look back. Some of the easiest ways to look back can be in our lives without much effort. Most teenagers take thousands of pictures every year and we put them everywhere; facebook, blogs, twitter, lockers and our walls. We remind ourselves without even trying of what we had and could have been.
But like I said before we can really see how our changes have done exactly that, changed us, we must have time.


As I begin to look to my walls and am reminded of all my changes whether my hair, friends, sports, growth, and new experiences, I can really decide who I want to be. I can also clearly see who I am not, I am no longer, and whom I do not want to be. When you decide this, you can begin to put that part of your past away, and become the person you want to change into.




We'll I've been afraid of changing, but sometimes it is exactly what we need to do.